Master of None.

This was tucked into my fortune cookie yesterday:

“You are the master of every situation.”

I don’t think I have ever received a more bold faced lie wrapped in something so sweet. If anything the past year has taught me that I am the master of…well…nothing. I can’t even keep my own head on straight at this point.

More and more each day as I fight Satans whispers in my ear, my own dysfunction, and the random weeping I realize that I am the master of NONE. It is god who is master of all, he is the master of my life and he is the one who I am learning

v e r y s l o w l y

to give everything over to. The verse that I have deemed my life verse and the has been getting me through most days is Lukas 1,38 “Da sagte Maria: Ich bin die Magd des Herrn: mir geschehe, wie du es gesagt hast.”

The part I hang onto the most is “Ich bin die Magd des Herrn.” In english it means, “I am the Handmaiden of the Lord.”

A handmaiden is not a Master.

I am master of none.