Pray, Sing, Write

LIFE, you know, that always demanding needing your attention every second thing. That thing which leaves you so exhausted you would rather read what someone else has written, watch someone else sing, and hop onto the coat tails of another’s prayers. LIFE is a hectic, wind tunnel of busyness, and I swear it is picking up speed. I have felt it’s blowing me in directions I haven’t wanted to go, and I realize now that may never change.

What can change, is me. I have given up on harnessing LIFE and trying to control circumstance, people and economies which are far out of my grasp. My endeavors will now be focused on who it is that LIFE blows around. Will I be someone who complains, and is constantly lamenting past and present circumstances(who is the person I have been of late)? Or, will I be the person who grins at the wind holding tightly only to those things which bring joy and inner peace?

I want to be the later.

So, to become that person, I have decided to get back to the basics of what gives me the type of joy which bubbles constantly like fresh spring water. Prayer. Singing. Writing. Each of things need to become so ingrained inside of me, when the wind blows, it can’t help but blow them along. 

I recognize the muscular structure of these verbs. Each of them take time and repeated use to develop, I won’t be able to do any of them like I once was able right away. Prayer takes a discipline of the spirit and ability to focus which I have lost. Singing requires muscle development and a sharpening of hearing. Writing requires an inner monologue which has been quieted. Though I have never been much of a lover of exercise, I won’t give up. I’ll start slow with simple prayers to invite Jesus into my day and make me aware of His presence. I’ll sing with as much volume as my diaphragm can muster, even if I am alone in the car. I’ll write even if it is nonsensical. 

And I’ll smile at the wind.

Continuing the adventure, 

Jess