Last night at small group we had an interesting conversation about mortality. We were challenged to face the reality of how short our time really is here on earth, and in doing so, consider what would be our regret if we were called to heaven right now. It makes me wonder if I would yet receive the Jesus high five which I so earnestly want.
The truth is I don’t think I do. I suffered a great loss about three and half years ago. It knocked me out flat, and I took some time away from ministry in order to lick my wounds. While I don’t think the loss of my grandmother will ever heal, I have learned to function with the disability. Yet I still have not engaged back into ministry again. There have been some one time events which I have helped out with, but I have not been in a committed engaged ministry where I give of myself sacrificially.
If I were called to meet Jesus face to face today, this would be my regret.
So please pray for me I would move back into ministry. Pray the Holy Spirit would guide this move, so I would find a ministry where I fit, rather than where I am plugging a hole. Please pray old bitterness would be uprooted from my heart so I can be free to serve without reservation.
Continuing the adventure,
Jess
Jess Boctor 
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