From Break Through to Break Down

The results are in!

There are only 250 entries left in the Amazon Breakthrough Novel Award contest!

And I’m not one of them.

I found out this morning that Bondage would not be going any further in the competition. My heart takes on an immediately defensive posture and I sigh, “Meh.”

Meh. 

I knew it would be a long shot. I didn’t really expect to win. It didn’t hurt anything to try and so I did.

Well, it didn’t hurt very much at least.

If I am honest with you (and with myself) then I have to admit it does hurt. I did hope to win. Even though it was a long shot, I thought my aim was pretty good.

Just not good enough,

Those are the words which hurt the most. “Not good enough.” It makes me question why I am so insistant on this path of being a writer. It makes me wonder why I think I can do this at all or if the dreams of making a living at doing what I love are really possible.

Then I am reminded, by very loving friends, this is my first book. It is my first venture out in the world of authorship. It is the first time I tried to give shape to the worlds dancing in my head. 

And I am reminded, I do this because there is a creator who designed me for it. He gives me words to tell His storys. It is for His glory.

Psalm 45:1

My heart overflows with a pleasing theme, I address my verses to the King, my tongue is like the pen of a ready scribe.

Continuing the adventure,

Jessica