False Starts

I feel like my life has a few areas in which I have had some false starts. 

I’m crouched at the starting line, waiting for the toll to sound, anticipation building and some movement out of the corner of my eye makes me think it’s time to go, so I dive in and start swimming for all my life. I’m halfway down the pool when I finally hear it, some referree is yelling at me to get back to the starting line. All that effort just to get wet and tired.

This adventure to Germany has been full of false starts. So much so, that even now when the evidence of God’s direct action surrounds us, and Paul is taking decided and dedicated measures to get us there, I don’t want to climb up on the podium again.

I don’t want to stand up exposed and jump in the water only to be called back again, embarresed and shivering again.

So I start making up conditions. I’ll say things to mayself, “I better have a stinking amazing suit” or maybe “I’ll wait to see what the other swimmers are doing.” Or maybe I’ll get up on the podium, but I won’t take on the posture of a competitor. I’ll be cautious.

The problem is, caution doesn’t win the race. Caution may guard your heart but it can defeat your purpose.

So please pray for the start of our journey, please pray as we are currently preparing to take on this new adventure, pray that I would be fully invested and willing to jump in with my whole heart.