Checking in with my God Shape #everydaymay

About a year and a half ago I sat down for one of the most interesting and terrifying conversations of my life. A brilliant woman named Angela Ferraro has the unique skills to see people through all their junk, their twists, and tie ups to see the jewel inside of them. To see what she calls their God Shape.

This is a place where all different parts of you come together to create your core. It is unique to you only and is a impression of God’s fingerprint on you. The reality is though, most people (including myself) don’t live in this place. We live in survival mode on the outskirts of who we are meant to be, often this is because we haven’t yet identified this internal place of purpose yet.

So, here I am after much time has passed, and I thought it might be good to check in with what I have done with the knowledge that I had gained that fateful night at Red Robin.

The first thing I’ve gained is a new perspective on work. This mostly means I recognize now that I can’t do just any job; let me rephrase, I shouldn’t do just any job. Currently I am working in Switzerland (figuratively); my job is neutral to me. It doesn’t push me over the edge in exhaustion, but it also doesn’t energize me either. As I look to the horizons, I am continually trying to evaluate if a new position (possible startup?) would be energizing or bring me back to a place of constant exhaustion.

The second thing I’ve learned is how to say no. This is mostly to myself. There are still parts of me which want to jump up and offer my assistance to anyone, no matter what the role is. I have to remember, there are things which I am meant to do and things which others are meant to do. 

I think this time has really been about me shedding the responsibilities which aren’t mine, and steeping out of places which don’t fit me well. I think I am ready to move forward; now that my hands are free of those things which weren’t mine to carry I am looking forward to taking hold of those things which are mine.

I look forward to creating, to sharing my creativity in a way which draws others into a shared space.

I look forward to spending more time in community with others; helping them to identify the best in themselves.

 Continuing the adventure, 

Jessica