Keep On Trekking

Paying bills is important.

Being a responsible adult who can contribute to my family’s wellness and overall care is important.

Sometimes I fear responsibilty will drown me.

It is this tension in which I live: the necessities versus the dreams. It is the place I lived when I studied German and thought I would never use my actual degree. It is the place I lived when I opened my own business and was a waitress. It is the place I lived when I was working in ecommerce and trying to finish the last edit of my book. It is the place I am living in as I scoure want ads in another language.

This address of mine is sometimes enthralling and very often exhausting. It sometimes makes me wonder if I ever made a right decision in my entire life, you know, all 26 years of it.

I, like so many people in my life, am trying to find a balance. How do I be an adventurer and a tax payer? How do give my time to neccessities without robbing my dreams? How do I make it work?

The only answer I have come up with is to keep on trekking. Keep going. Keep perservering. Keep writing, creating, and feeding the flame which burns inside. Oh, and go to work the next morning; that is, as soon as I get a job again.

Continuing the adventure,

Jessica