Nighttime Thoughts

Last night as I started to drift off to sleep one thought seemed to be on replay through my mind.

It was this: self belittling, shame and guilt for my failures and sins will never break the cycle. My only hope is to chase after Jesus, to love Him more. By loving Jesus, I love myself.

There is a lot to unpack in that statement, I know. I don’t know why this is what has been whispered to me in the warmth of a sumner evening. However, as someone who has a history of been overly self critical and who burns her own good intentions at the stake, I desperately need it to be true.

So, I think I will rest here for awhile. I’ll let God whisper to me in the dark of night. I’ll chase after Jesus. I’ll learn to love him.

I’ll learn to love myself.

Continuing the adventure,

Jess