That Untouchable Thing

We all have it.

The one thing we know we want but do not seem to be able to quite wrap our fingers around. The nameless longing inside of us. The deep seated desire to be excellent, to reflect a beautiful light like a diamond. The one thing which we know, in some inexplicable way, if just given the chance, we would shine.

It is a beautiful and terrifying thing.

It is also a thing which, when we are honest with ourselves, is not ready yet. We aren’t ready to show the world. We are afraid that, if we were given the opportunity, we would simple tumble and fall. No shining. No winning. Just a tumble.

It is so tempting to give up.

It is so tempting to simply say, “It will never be good enough.” So we lie to ourselves and say we never really wanted to do x, y, or z. The untouchable thing was just a fools dream.

Well, most of you already know, I am a fool.

So this is my hope for 2013, that I don’t give up. I won’t make resolutions, or timelines, or charts (though it is really rempting to do so). I will continue to prepare. I will unearth the diamond. I want to give shape and form to the untouchable thing so that when my chance does come, it will shine.

I wish you all the luck in pursuing your untouchable things.

Continuing the adventure,

Jess