Category: The Early Years

Posts Prior to 2020

  • Thoughts about Flatlining

    I just finished reading a novel, which will remained unnamed because I don’t want to incur the wrath of true Literature Scholars whose tastes may be more refined than mine.

    Anyways, one of the things I kept wondering throughout the length of the story was ‘When is something going to happen?’

    That isn’t to say the story was without events, it just seemed to me they were all flat. They were the same events, of a sort, repeating themselves. The only change occurred at the very end. The heroine finds herself happily engaged to the object of her affection, and then she is too bashful to go into any details about their great romance. Up until this point, she had been for the most part static in her interactions with the rest of the world. She was either too ‘good’ of a person to stand up for herself when she was abused or too ‘simple’ to warrant needing anything from anyone. The one exception was the young man which she hoped to find herself engaged to, but whom she was too shy to truly pursue.

    Simply put, the heroine was flat.

    One of the reasons I give myself the luxury of reading novels (and watching too much Dr. Who) is because nothing teaches like the work of others. I come away from each completed novel with thoughts about how I can improve my own writing and storytelling abilities. I learned from this novel that characters who flatline are not very interesting.

    Flatlined characters are difficult to relate to. Is there anyone you know who could really suffer the abuse of snobbish children for years on end without becoming either bitter or abusive themselves? Is there anyone who you know that really can hold their temper so well as to never lose it one frustrating defeat after another? Let’s try a different scenario, can you relate to someone who is always so angry that they never can be kind or sorry for what they have done? Characters who never admit they were wrong or (more likely) try to make up for it without admitting they were wrong? A character who is always the same in every situation puts up a barrier between themselves and the reader because the reader is either incredulous at their promoted goodness, or the reader is turned off by the character’s outlandish badness. Examples of interesting characters are ones who pretend to be good while harboring badness, or who is thought of badly but really has a heart of gold.

    Besides being unrelatable, flatlined characters rob a story of interesting plot changes. For example, what if the frustrated governess completely lost her cool and gave her disruptive pupils a good thrashing? What would be the consequences? How would the story alter? How would she change? Most importantly, how would the reader view the change?

    Since I finished the book, I have been thinking about my own characters and how little I actually know them. I have spent a certain amount of time with them in certain situations, but I have not begun to account for the gradients of circumstances which they may find themselves in. Are my characters different when they are relaxed on a beach compared to when they are fighting the evil of the world? A better question would be to ask if  my characters could relax on a beach, or are they permanently put on edge? One of the skills I want to become better at, as a writer, is developing a deeper character before I start writing. I think if I take the time to practise developing characters first, and storyline second, I will find a wealth of possible plot points and interesting material to use.

    What do you think? Do you like more consistent characters or ones who surprise you now and again?

    Continuing the adventure,

    Jess

  • The Question of No Matter What

    Over the past few weeks I have been pondering a repeated question. It is simply this: do I love x,y, or z enough to do it no matter what?

    It is one of the biggest simple questions I have faced in a while. What set me on this track has been a re-examination of my beliefs about God’s will, my motives for creating art, and whether or not I will ever be Luke Skywalker.

    Let me explain.

    I think somewhere in my growing process between “I hate myself” and “God made me with purpose”, I became sidetracked with God’s will and a desire for Destiny. As I have spent time working through some of the issues surrounding self-loathing and gaining a better mental health perspective, I have been seeking out God’s perfect will for my life. There has to be one right? Some magical fast track to the best possible life where I am skinny, creative, happy, and never ever fight with my husband. I just have to find that narrow and windy road to get there.

    Recently, the Capt’n gave me a book titled Just Do Something by Kevin DeYoung. Similar to my current dilemma, it is a small book which packs a wallop. DeYoung makes the point that while God cares very deeply about every aspect of our lives because He cares very deeply about each one of us, there are few decisions which He will make for us. God gives us brains to–shocker–USE them. It is time to stop throwing responsibility on God for every aspect of our lives and start making some decisions about where we want to go and how we want to get there. We should always be seeking God’s wisdom, but seeking His wisdom and waiting around for some miraculous sign of His approval are two different things.

    As I have been processing how to take responsibility for my decisions, it has lead me question my motives for what I do. I mean, when I was blindly searching for that elusive narrow path of ‘God’s perfect will’ my general assumption was that if I found it, He would financially bless me for finding it. If God designed me with a purpose, why wouldn’t He bless me for finding my precise niche? However, if we look at that statement from another angle, the question then becomes, am I seeking God’s will because I truly believe His will to be the best? Or am I trying to find it so He will bless me with comforts and what I think is best?

    Interwoven in everything is a skewed longing for destiny. I want to find God’s will because I want to be the heroine who saves the world by using the force, I mean, ‘my giftedness’. This sense of a destiny which is waiting to be found increases my self absorption factor, and has me looking inward for a savior instead of up to Jesus. Instead of looking to the work which Jesus already did on the cross to provide my salvation, I continue to seek out a destiny of works which will get me into heaven. I need to give up the idea of being Luke Skywalker and learn to just rely on Jesus.

    This is how I cam to the question of no matter what.

    If I strip away the idea of ‘God’s perfect plan’ and start taking responsibility for my decisions, if I let go of financial motivations, and I look to Jesus to be my Hero, nothing is left but simply the task of doing the work. This is what creates the question. Do I love to be  writer enough to have words on a page be my entire reward? Do I love creating mixed media art pieces enough to let the process of painting, gluing, and scribbling be the reward? Is practicing the craft of bookbinding enough if all I have in the end is a place for my thoughts?

    This is what I mean about the question of no matter what: do I have enough passion to carry me through the journey no matter what the outcome is? Can I do the work for the sake of doing the work and the enjoyment of it?

    This isn’t to say I believe it is wrong to want to make a career out of these things, or that God cannot use me or that He did not make me with design. My point is, I need my focus to be on going through the process rather than the outcome. I need my focus to be on the journey rather than what I might get out of the destination. Which is why this is such a big question: do I love these things enough to make the long journey for the sake of the journey alone?

    Continuing the adventure,

    Jess

  • The Golden Rule of Preaching

    Recent conversations in my life have started me thinking on this question: what is the best way to preach the Gospel?

    After much pondering and struggling with this question for many years in my own Christian walk, the only answer I feel sure of is that there is no answer.

    There are so many theological and practical debates about how we should live out our lives as Christians and how to tell other people about Jesus. Do we drink? Do we dance? Do we sing at Sunday services? Do we have electric guitars? And did you know that drums are of the devil? The debate points are exhaustingly endless and I kinda don’t care anymore.

    What I do care about is if people come to know Jesus, they are reunited with their Heavenly Father and gain the counsel of the Holy Spirit. That’s all I care about. How they came to know Jesus doesn’t’ matter. Whether it was a tract, a fake $100 bill, a deep cultivated relationship, a preacher on TV, a pastor’s message on Sunday, or a crazy man preaching on the street corner, I don’t care. The reason I don’t care is because preaching the Gospel is about the Who and not the How. Who we are preaching about will always be more important than how we are doing it.

    Part of the reason I have come to believe this is because we are all going to fail. There will always be a time–whether from the pulpit or from a coffee shop–when we will try to share the Gospel and fall flat on our faces. However, I would rather try and fail a hundred times than never attempt because I’m not quite perfect yet. A hundred failures is a hundred opportunities for God’s grace and power to shine through my weaknesses.

    Beyond failure, I have come to learn that God reaches different people through very different avenues. Some people need to be walked, hand in hand with one person, to the feet of Jesus. Others may need to feel the security of a gathering. Still others need to be alone with Him to hear His voice. We are all different and I’ve learned to understand that our differences–when we’re not fighting about them–make us a more whole and complete picture of who God is. He is a God of diversity and creativity. He is a God who sometimes speaks in a cloud of fire, and sometimes speaks in a whisper. Jesus is a man who embraced children and cast money changers out of the temple with a whip. The trinity of God is complex and surprising. Jesus is the only way to God the Father, but I refuse to believe there is only one path to Jesus.

    So here is what I have determined for myself: I am going to follow the Golden Rule when it comes to preaching. I am going to preach the Gospel in a way which I would like to have it preached to me. I will invest in relationships over time, I will teach in settings appropriate to my strengths and gifting, but you won’t find me walking the street with a stack of tracts in my hand. It makes me uncomfortable when a stranger approaches me on the street, so I’m doubly uncomfortable when I am asked to approach others. I’ll leave the street preaching to someone else who loves to meet new people, who is comfortable in that space, and who God has gifted to do that.

    Most importantly, this is what I am going to stop doing: I’m going to stop shooting others down from the sidelines. I’m going to stop telling people they are ‘doing it wrong’ because it doesn’t’ make sense to me or it makes me uncomfortable. If I am asked for advice or direction, I will gladly give it. Otherwise, I’m going to KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT unless it is to give encouragement to people who are doing something I am not equipped to do.

    I recognize there is a lot of fear and doubt attached to how we go about preaching the Gospel and what it means to be associated with “those crazies”. However, if you really think about it, the Gospel is a Crazy Story. There is nothing sane about a sinless man giving up His life for the rest of us who can’t even love the people closest to us well, not to mention the rest of the world. There is nothing normal about a God who could wipe us all out with a thought, but chooses to be patient and sacrificing so we can be reunited with Him. We teach a crazy love story. Get over being crazy. Start asking yourselves the question of what’s the worst that could happen if the Gospel is preached differently than how you think it should be? If a group of believers  start doing strange bold crazy things for Jesus, what’s the worst that could happen? They might fail, so what? Hopefully, they will learn from the experience and do better next time. Maybe the worst thing which could happen is that they totally skew the message (hopefully unintentionally) and preach that Jesus is chicken. So what? Do we not trust that our God is bigger than  one mixed up message and that He is able to call anyone to Himself through any means? And what if someone never once speaks in front of a group of people, but spends time serving individuals and walking alongside them through the difficult parts of life? What’s the worst that could happen? They may not have as big ‘numbers’ of people they save, but since when is following Jesus about numbers?

    Here is the hard truth, there are people in the world who are choosing to live separated from God. In the end, this choice will lead them to Hell because God will not force himself on anyone, and Heaven is His domain. So we need every member of the body of Christ, doing whatever it is that they do best, to reach people and introduce them to Jesus. That’s it.

    If I touched a personal button, please know I am aware that this summary leaves out a lot of loopholes and past situations in which the message of Jesus has been twisted for personal gain. However, I would encourage you to examine if the stories about TV pastors embezzling money or the lazy Christian who never shares their faith are really the majority. I’m sure you’ll find they just aren’t. There are too many Christians going about their day trying to introduce people to Jesus through whatever means and talents they have for it to be true. So let’s stop policing one another about how we preach the Gospel and keep pointing people to who Jesus really is.

    Continuing the adventure,

    Jess

  • Catch the Niche Wave

    Recently, I was working for the art & apparel brand aHbe Racer. It’s niche is the Cafe Racer and Motorcycle scene. During my time with the company, I started to see a rise in the popularity of Cafe Racers as they made their way from a niche market to a more general market. There were two tell tale signs of the transition which made me realize the change was coming. The first sign was a Lowe’s commercial which featured a Cafe Racer in it as the hobby of a gear head. The second was a commercial for Glade duo-scents, using a cafe racer and its rider as a contrasting point to a soft and feminine character. For two major companies like Glade and Lowes to be featuring Cafe Racers meant the market scene was about to change. It was about to be a  late 90s khaki and swing dancing craze all over again.

    I was discussing the change I saw coming with my brother, Remy. He works as a web-strategist and gave me two prong strategy for trying to catch the wave first. I thought I would pass it along to you so that if you find your niche in the main market, you can be the first there.

    • Keywords: Market Research – How do people search for you product/niche if they don’t know what it is?
    1. Choose 5 – 20 friends.
    2. Send a personal email requesting a favor: “Watch this national commercial (or other indicator), use Google or Bing to learn about the product/niche. Send us back your three best searches and what you learned.
    3. Offer a t-shirt or coupon code for first five responses as incentive / thank you for participating.
    • Content
    1. Educational posts – Easy to draw from Wikipedia or cite books and re-tell on your site through your company’s more accessible voice and style.
      1. History of your product/niche
      2. Profile / Interview with prominent individual / influencer
    2. Write a brief post about the  commercial (or other market change indicator): Yay! Our thing is becoming a big deal!
    3. Seed blog copy and headings with keywords from market research.

    If you are interested in more ways to maximize on your web presence, you should check out Remy’s company, Root and Flow.

    Continuing the adventure,

    Jessica

  • Breaking the Silence

    Life has taken a few tumultuous turns over the past few weeks.

    As I look guiltily at the date of my last post, I struggle with the same heavy question I have whenever life takes my attention out of the blogosphere for a while…how do I break the silence?

    Do I make lame excuses? Do I make false promises to be more disciplined in the future? Do I confess everything which has been going on in a vomit of text?

    Or, do I just write the first words and trust the ether to welcome me back into the fold?

    Here’s to breaking the silence.

    Continuing the adventure,

    Jess

    PS. Meet Brownie, one of the many changes in my life.

    This is Brownie. She is our new puppy. Half of the time she is small and sweet. Half of the time she is a goblin. Either way, the name fits.
    This is Brownie. She is our new puppy. Half of the time she is small and sweet. Half of the time she is a goblin. Either way, the name fits.
  • Becoming A Student Again

    I just celebrated my 29th birthday.

    As a joke (though, only partially) I told a friend I needed to make this year the best year ever. Since I’m such a procrastinator, it would make sense to push as much as possible into the last year of my twenties. For some reason, I (like many people) feel that turning thirty is some sort of deadline. I have to have a list of things I accomplished while I was still a twenty-something in order to start out the next decade of my life on the right foot.

    Insane, I know, but this is my strange little world.

    The reality is though, I probably won’t accomplish most of the things on my imaginary list of ‘have-to-do-this-before-I’m-thirty’. I don’t say this because I doubt myself, but because I realize that I don’t want to live my life according to checklists any more. I don’t want to live under the cloak of proof or the shadow of external worth. It’s too exhausting.

    Rather, I decided that 29 is the year I will become a student again. I want to become Mary sitting at Jesus’ feet. I want to study great storytellers. I want to form a study group. I want to listen more, practice more, and find out all the things I don’t know. I don’t want to pass the test, I want to digest the lesson.

    I think this is the next stage of my journey, and I am looking forward to walking into the unknown places it will take me.

    Continuing the adventure,

    Jess

  • When I Look Away

    This came rambling through my brain this morning.

    I feel like Peter drowning

    When I look away

    When I let my eyes fall upon the waves

    And Your face is swallowed by the haze

    I feel like Peter drowning

    When I try to walk alone

    When my journey crosses liquid

    And my identity becomes twisted

    So, shine bright in the midst of the storm

    Call me home with a shout resounding

    Reach out and pluck me from the gray

    Because I feel like Peter drowning

    When I look away.