Forgiveness has been difficult for me to learn.
Please understand, I am loyal. I will stick by people until the bitter end, unfortunately, that is usually how it ends. Bitter. There have been many experiences in my life which have wounded and maimed this strange little heart of mine. Things which scar, and so even if I want to just forgive and forget, I am not entirely able to.
I have come to a place where I realize forgetfulness isn’t such a good idea anyways. Lessons aren’t remembered when your forget. Stories are lost when you forget. The process of healing is stopped.
I have learned, my story is important. Not because I am important, but because the work which God is doing in my life is important. How will others know of His powerful healing, if I don’t tell people about the way in which He has bound up my wounds? How will others know the blind can see if I don’t tell them how He has given me a new perspective?
There have been many places in my life which I have needed to forgive, sometimes even when others don’t ask for it. Sometimes when the ones who have hurt me don’t even know. Forgiveness is about my healing, about freeing myself from the bitterness which can so easily ensnare.
There are many things which I am still working through. Places where God is still binding the wounds.
Please pray I would not give up on the process. Pray I would be continually aware of the grace which God both gives to me and asks me to extend to others. Pray I would forgive.
Continuing the adventure,
Jess
