This last year has just been full of really hard situations, relationships and experiences for me.
It just has.
The other day I was talking through some of these things with my dad.
Dad: I just hope that through all of this you have found some lesson to make it worthwhile.
Jess: Maybe the lesson wasn’t from the experiences. Maybe the lesson is now.
So I am still learning. I am still growing.
Mostly, I’m still hanging on for dear life.
Ich bin die Magd des Herrn.
Painting in Progress 3
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So this is my painting after my third session. I gave her some warmer skin tones and more detail in the face. FYI I hate painting lips. I just have a hard time with it, and these were especially difficult because of the angle her face is laying at. I think I have one session left and then she’s done. I don’t know what to do afterwards. I like her alot, maybe I’ll try and sell her on Etsy, or I’ll just keep her for myself. Any interested buyers?
-Jessica
Painting in Progress 2Originally uploaded by marchenstudiosThis is what my painting looks like after sitting down for a second session of painting. This session was really kind of short, no more then thirty minutes. I found that I needed to get up and leave it be for the night. I have a really hard time with figure painting, I haven’t studied it much beyond a 7th grade art class and so it is easy for me to get frustrated when it doesn’t look right. I get so tied up in small details that I lose sight of the whole picture and so last night I just decided to be done for a little while. I got most of the main shadowing done and was really pleased. The last thing I did was give her a light coat of metallic silver. I really want her to have layers and texture and an ethereal feeling.So how did you do facing your fears?-Jessica
Painting in Progress 1
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I have a fear of painting.
I love it, but at the same time my repitoire is very limited. Once I get past a simplistic landscape or a beautiful blending of colors, I’m just not very good. I have really great ideas though. In my minds eye I see the painting before it is ever created, my problem is getting my hands and my visions to match up. So most of the time I just say forget it and give up. Well, I decided not to give up this time. I am going to try really hard to make this painting the vision I hope it to be. I am going to give myself the freedom to leave it and come back, to not rush, to not have deadlines. It may take me ten years, but I’m going to do it. I will face my fears. So this is phase one. What are you scared of? I dare you (yes, all three of my readers) to try it. -JessicaAnd I won.
What? you may ask…
The title….
I have been declared the “Best Hugger”
You Rock Mays Family. Thanks for making my day.
If you don’t know who the Mays are you can check out Brandi Here.
They Rock the meaning of coolness.
Today was a really good creative day. I am exhausted but it was a good day. Definitely an evolution day. What I mean is that every idea I had, every original concept changed into something completely different then the original vision. Most days I would get frustrated and yell at my stamps, paints, canvas and snippets of paper that float around my workspace. Not today though. Today , I just let it flow. If it wasn’t working I let it go and moved on to the next idea. It was a day of Darwinism in Art. Survival of the fittest, the best, the strongest. Those were the ideas that won today. It was a good day.Anyone else experience artistic Darwinism?
Jess Boctor 