Riding the Current

The past few weeks have been an awesome display of God’s movement as Paul and I have watched the tide of our life change.

In sharing with a friend recently, I told her how life seemed to be mostly about doing what I need to in order to keep my head above water as I let God’s current take us wherever we need to go. It has been amazing to watch as He has provided for us financially, He has freed us from our old commitments, and blessed our marriage immensely.

Recently, we even saw the safe harbor of a job on the horizons. I had applied for a customer service position and got through to the final round of interviews this week. This job, while not my dream job, would have provided security for us not only in moving to Germany but possibly moving back as well. It most likely would have allowed Paul to stay home and volunteer for the church full time. 

Today, I was notified the company went in “another direction”. I had to smile to myself at their phrasing, realising it may not have been them who moved. 

While I texted Paul “We trust God right?” my father in law was questioning me about why I didn’t get the job and consoling me that I went as far as I did. I just smiled at him, “I learned a long time ago not to pray for an outcome other than God’s will would be done.”

I think he expected me to be crushed, to be sad or disappointed. In all honesty though, all I really feel is free. I feel free to start writing, to start painting, to start anything which will allow Gods current to carry and flow through me.

Don’t be fooled into thinking I’m not terrified too. The job would have provided alot of securiy for Paul and I. Right now we are leaving for a foreign country without a source of income in less than 7 weeks. I understand fully the weight of our situation,

but what would an adventure be without a bit of uncertaintity?